so drama's over! indeed, i am so god damn relieved. no more practices, no more seeing faces i wish not to see, no more taking your bullshit excuses. yay for me. after so many weeks of practising, it's finally done. i'd say we gave it our best shot(?) i think. smoothest one since we started practising. nobody forgot their lines, nobody gave in to the laughters from the audience, well, one person did, the china b*tch who never came for practices. but it's all good, Danny (drama teacher) knows how to deal with it because we told him prior to the performance that this china girl never came for practices. oh and btw, my drama scenario was Arranged Marriage. haha. stop laughing. characters; kimfui-father, annonymus-son, me-mother, china girl-daughter. you guys know who the annonymus is right? so anyways, story goes: kimfui's wife died. and i was his wife's best friend. first scene was his wife's funeral scene. then scene changes to four years later, kimfui and i decided that our kids should get married. to cut the story short, i arranged for my daughter (china girl) to be married to kimfui's son (annonymus). so la dee da, after we broke the news to our kids individually, they met up. both our kids refused to get married because they are childhood friends. so they decided to set their parents (ie me and kimfui) up instead. then came the scene where kimfui and i had to tahan laughing like shit. our kids brought us to the cinema, without me knowing that i was gonna meet kimfui there and vice versa. and 'sparks' happened in the cinema la. the audience started laughing when kimfui had his hand around my shoulder and when i started leaning on him. that was just to show that our kids were successful in setting us up. after that, ''I'll Never Break Your Heart'' by BSB played. it's like a song when credits are playing..that kinda thing. so yeah my drama exam ended there. after my class finished performing, we stayed back for photos and stuff. THANK GOD we get to choose our own group members next term. phew. yit ming's group was so good! they copied Die Another Day, but damn nice la. but unfortunately, he wasn't james bond. another guy was james bond.

so this morning i went for HAO RUI'S drama performance. eh chin, ''*ting* you're here*''. damn funny wei. stand there like one kayu only. haha. then the hand shaking! haha. oh apparently, when his hand was trembling, he claims it wasn't because he was nervous. it was because his hands ''tired'' ah. so far, only hizwan,chin bryan & i are done with our performance. left: greg,lisher,raymond and daniel. you ppl are gonna DIE! chen & her video recorder. muahahha. she'll laugh so hard that you'll forget your lines. nola i won't. i believe in karma. after all, i have 3, t h r e e, t i g a freaking huge ulcers now. :(


my laptop got admitted again today, Dr Raymond's gonna give it a new brain. reformat la, bugger, damn a lot of stuffs inside. :( till we meet again, take care. love all.

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By  Anonymous, at 12:55 AM  

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i miss you. enough said. i hope you find joy and happiness in all that you do on and after your 18th birthday. i...miss...you... sniff. take care of yourself there in chico. cheers to an everlasting friendship. impossible as it is, i hope to see you year end. oh and again, thank you so much for your beautiful hand made card. US add please? love you. hugs.

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So yes, I haven't blogged since thurs, thanks to my f*cked up laptop. it's in the hospital now..and oh no, greg just appeared naked out from the bathroom. so anyway, daniel's asleep. and i have to blog in Arrow now since my laptop's gone. Dr Raymond detected 98 viruses. how cool is that? i have no idea how in the world it got 98 viruses when i don't download shits, no songs, no movies, no nothing! bugger. maybe it's just time to get a new one la.

okay, i'm officially done with ALL my essays. my Acc essay was done last night, due on monday. tuesday's my drama exam and thursday's my eap oral presentation which, i hopefully won't screw up. looking forward to filling in the self evaluation form for drama, that china b*itch and the other asswipe will DIE. you see, this china b*itch didn't turn up twice, even yesterday. when i called her in the morning, first call didn't pick up. second call, she turned off her damn mobile. anything you ask her, ''oh..i don't know..up to you..'' yes, thanks so much. you contributed more than i expected, i'm so effing proud of you. VERY. and i'm seeing you in 15mins time, hopefully this time you turn up.

friday was Trinity Talevaganza. performed two songs with mughni dearest. Look What You've Done-JET and Home-Michael Buble. vocalist: mughni, drummer: myself, keyboardist: kim(chi) haha kidding and guitarist: kirin from Macau. :) this is basically it. actually no, it's just that i have insufficient time to blog cos i got to go for my drama practise soon. kimfui just text me. i'll post another entry later in the day. a special one ;) take care, ladies and gentlemen.

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it's gonna be a short post. i'm super sleepy. but just thought i'll dedicate this entry to di dearest. thanks so much, girl. i'm always amazed at how you creative you are with your hands. and most importantly, how you manage to get things done in such a short time. first, before i left. and then, this time, like two, three days before you left? but i was pleasantly surprised to see it lying on my kitchen top. i don't collect the mails you see, my sis checks the mail box. i totally forgot about it. but when i saw it, i couldn't help but smile. when i opened it to read, emo, i was. but what made me super happy was it was hand made. with di's personal touch :) thanks so much again, girl. can't thank you enough. you've added to my collection of thingys from friends beside my bed. it's no wonder i sleep well sometimes. certainly hope california is treating you well.

today was just like any ordinary day, but def better, minus the drama part. one member didn't turn up, didn't call to tell she won't be coming neither did she pick up my seven hundred million phone calls. no worries, revenge will be taken when kimf & i fire her in the evaluation sheet (worth 3 marks btw). i'm off to bed. tired, plus, it's raining. the bed's totally screaming out to me. till we meet again, take care. love all.

p/s: teh, fai tit la!

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you know how f*cking inconsiderate you are? everytime we meet, you put your needs above everyone else in the group. who doesn't wanna be with their significant other all the time? maybe just not 24/7 like you. but still. ''aiyoo, i dunno whether i can make it or not la. '' ''aiyerr i got tight schedule tonight you know.'' ''aiyoo..so far la..'' ''eh faster lar, settle this then can go already.'' ''you tell him, i got things to do now.'' WHO THE F*CK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? did you f*cking contribute by doing anything shit? who f*cking printed out the god damn things? you don't f*cking tell me what to do when you don't f*cking help in any way. ''aiyoo..damn sleepy la damn tired, yesterday party whole night..'' do i look like i care what time you f*cking party until? you know very well we were gonna meet the next day, don't prove me wrong by showing me you have no f*cking brains to think. i've had enough of you. i thought you have changed, and i'd have a totally different perspective of you now, but no, you had to ruin it. you asked for it. i've had enough of a few f*cking weeks with you. your attitude is just so sickening. haven't you learned from your f*cking mistakes? or have you just got no f*cking brains to think for yourself? seriously, putting mahjong above this, you gotta wake up man. this is for a f*cking exam, do you sit for a mahjong exam? i don't think so. your whining just disgusts me and everyone else. you've got all your priorities wrong. you can't f*cking sacrifice time with your 'significant other', if you can call her that, to put time into this, if i may add, more important thing. sometimes i wonder if you can call that brain of yours, brains. you make me sick. possibly God's worst creation.

omg i feel so much better. sorry for all the effing words. it's been inside for too long. i never knew my swearing abilities were so promising. so how's everyone back home? so yeah, sunday was a sunday different from all the other sundays we've had. a relaxing sunday at the park with food. :) missed my Acc Lecture yesterday morning. i woke up lar but somehow fell back to sleep. had the full dress rehearsel for drama today. can't wait for next term's drama exam where i can work with more productive and willing to contribute/commit people. i can't thank sings enough for picking those random names and making me in the same group as...

we missed the lake house again today. somehow all of us just forgot about it. i'm still dying to watch that movie. i still have my Acc essay, Eap oral presentation and Drama exam to go. After that, two exams and i'm done. 3 weeks of hols awaiting me. we're planning to go somewhere. none of us are going back, i hope? *coughs at sher* probably gold coast but seems a bit pricey for us students. still in the process of planning.

sometimes i don't know if i'm asking for too much, but it's the least you could do to keep me happy. i wish minds could be read.

love all. till we meet again, take care. yours truly.

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Chillings. :)
Don't stress out too much ok?

By  Anonymous, at 11:35 AM  

oh god, chen. who were you fucking about? relax darling. people like these dont deserve your brain space.

By  Anonymous, at 1:38 AM  

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it's just a post to let you guys know i'm still alive. i'm utterly tired and don't feel like blogging today.

di: if you actually have time to read this, how's orientation so far? missing you here. someone's turning eighteen soon, aye? ;)

i thought i was gonna be quite free after handing in all the damn essays, but doesn't look like it now though. i didn't realize my drama exam and eap sh*t oral presentation is on the same day. hope i won't screw up tryna remember too many things. okay, i'm off. probably blog more tmrwla. but it was a good weekend. till we meet again, take care. love all. did i mention i miss home? i freaking wanna go home.

get well soon






fei: girl, you need pictures!

mughni's 18th@ Base Lounge
*he's not in the pic cos he was busy socializing.

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chen!! i miss you like SO SUPER MUCH!! i miss my sis too!! haih.. wish both of you could come back NOW! hmmm...

By  Anonymous, at 12:50 AM  

aww..don't worry, we'll be back in no time. smile :)

By  nehc, at 11:06 PM  

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can i scream? i'm blogging tonight, which means i finished by god damn Hoi Essay (!!) oh, i smell freedom. it's damn yummy. now the bed's calling me, like ''chennn''. anyway, yes, one more baby essay to go, which is due next week. i can't be bothered to even read what i've researched on in the library the other day. i'm just so..''anti essays'' now. i guess i'll start when the due date comes nearer. i never knew how painful it was to do mudderrr essays. remember i said this blog was for you people back home, but, the people here will still find out somehow? yeah one sneaky ass by the name of tan yuun tatt found out ages ago apparently. greg, i knew it la. esp after last night, it was like a confirm case already. ''........although you only credit my printer&laptop.'' tell me that's not obvious. stupid donkey. oh, probably something you never knew about him, he's the freaking KING OF PROCRASTINATION. like seriously. aye biatch, if you're reading this while Hoi's not done, pls go do it la! less than 24hours left la dey. after tmrw, you can sleep and fall into a coma whatever.

highlight of the day: 7.30pm when hoi was done. wahh, never felt this good in a long while.
karbs, i apologize okay? i have a three week holiday coming up (unlike some losers like ha*cough*rold, who only get two weeks off cos some people decided he was academically gifted and took four subjects, hence he finishes later) HA. HA. the group of us are thinking of going somewhere. suggestions? i do. why don't all you KL-ites fly over and join us? that would be ideal. :) anyway, adios. till we meet again, love all.

take it easy, girl

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Woohoo~~ Good to know u finally got ur own blog!

Hey, why dun u goin skiing or something this hol? It'll be swell. Mt Hotham is quite good, or Falls Creek.

By  Carrie McGorgeous, at 4:32 PM  

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i don't know why, but, somehow the damn computers in the lab screwed up, literally screwed up my god damn psych essay today. i had my psych tutorial this morning, so maureen(psych tutor) checked our reference to see if everything was correct so we don't lose marks, and i was the only one with the least changes to make (i'm not inflating my ego btw), so off we went to the computer labs to edit our reference list and essay. bloody computer, changed my settings and my paragraphs went berserk. i was damn scared cos my essay was due TODAY! so i had to switch the setting back (you know how much of a computer idiot i am right?), manually edit back my paragraphs and the worst part was, it printed double side. i was farrrked man. i was already rushing like a bloody mad woman. had to slowly edit all my in-text references also. mudderr, i gave up. ran all the way back to Arrow to use greg's laptop&printer. thanks greg :) would've died without your laptop&printer, not you. :P but i swear, i was sweating like a roasted fool man. and i think the theory about pimples popping up when you're under pressure was just proven by chen the great today la. i have a freaking huge pimple right in the middle of the top part of my forehead. pain la dey. so that was today. horribly tiring. right now, everyone's just rushing to finish/start their Hoi essay. and oh, this genius here, left her thumbdrive in Arrow cos she forgot to take it out from greg's laptop, that's why she's blogging now cos she can't do her work. i'm waiting for bryan to send my files over so i can continue my doomed essay. why is it we have to reference every god damn thing? back in high school, it was just copy and paste man! no plagiarism whatsoever. you know how pissings that is? bleah.

i so envy mughni now, not for his hair though. he's on the next flight home to KL(!) for his sister's wedding. can i just say i wanna go back for my parents' anniversary? godamnit. or my dog's birthday? anything to get away from doing essays. after this friday, it's liberation day man. i mean, i still have another essay due next week, the final one! but it's pretty much just a copy and paste job, literally. this sat night, some trinity dudes have organized a drinking night @Hush Bar. it's to mark the end of essays! well, almost la k? hopefully i won't get wasted. i still have my bullshit Eap oral presentation (i'm supporting same-sex marriage!) *ewww* and Drama practices to go la. how ni? God, i pray you'll help me through this with all your strength and will.

so tomorrow will be a super marathon for me, i'm gonna have to finish up my Hoi essay if i don't finish by tonight and hence, it's a confirm ponteng case for my Eap tutorial tmrw. Eap is bullshit anyway, it can burn in hell for all i care.

amalina, you're strongggggg! enjoy high school with all your friends, they will help keep you occupied. life isn't all about depending or having a sibling around. alright? we all know you're as strong as [insert word here]. and do your homework girl! don't be lazy. :)

till we meet, adios and wish me luck for the remaining assignments. probably won't blog tomorrow if my Hoi essay's not done by tonight. can't wait for friday, baybeh! love all.

funny how things change

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By  Anonymous, at 12:44 AM  

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mudderrrr..i swear my ass hurtsla. it's from sitting too much. i had drama this morning, discussed our script, had a rough run through, danny (drama teacher) gave some pointers; scene changes, time in between, entry and exit of characters and stuff like that. i thought it'd be fun, but somehow, after seeing the other groups' run throughs, the storyline for my group seems a bit shallow. i asked danny if it's too shallow, he said it's alright cos this term, the focus is not so much on the depth of the story but more of just letting us work on our own to gain experience for next term's main and final drama exam. next term's exam is shit scaryla. outsiders can come and watch, so hey, consider flying over? haha. had psychology lecture after that. half the time, my mind wasn't freaking there. i was probably thinking about my Drama script of Hoi essay la. highlight of the day: skipped Lit lec. went to Leeper (library) to do more research on my Hoi assignment instead. after all, in Lit lec today, they only continued watching the stupid fahrenheit 451 movie. btw, lecture halls are pretty empty this week, thanks to all the essays. people either skip lectures to finish up their essays or to catch up on lost sleep. life with essays sucks, doesn't it? badly.

i had kebab for dinner, and i'm a happy girl. finally satisfied my craving for kebab. oh and then, i also had my bubble tea today! muahaha. today would have been perfect if not for the bloody Hoi essay. something you probably never knew about chen: she gets damn high under pressure/stress. ie SPM. she tied her hair by dividing it into four, making them four coconut trees lookalike. and now, it's the fcuking assignments. i sincerely appreciate if i could get an extention for my Hoi assignment, but that's like asking God to do it for me; it's that impossible(!!!).

i was working on my Hoi essay, until i realized i needed to breathe. so yes, here i am, blogging. and this is just to everyone in general, i swear it's not directed at anyone in particular. life is not a signed contract. how sucky would it be to be tied down by someone, even after a break up? even when two people share a relationship, they lead different lifes. they don't do everything together, they both need breathing space, however much in love they are. so yeah, much less after a break up. people need to move on. i mean, yeah duh, one party definitely has to be on the losing end (usually the girls btw, sucks big time). but, the losing end party should be happy for the other person if he/she gets a new person, with his/her best interest at heart. if she's happy, i'm happy for her. if he's happy, i'm happy for him. the drama-ness in life. smile, and the world smiles with you.

much love. and till we meet, take care.

perhaps it's easier said than done

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IT"S DEFINITELY EASIER SAID THAN DONE! blek! besides, quoting poe, men are cows! hooray for that! :)

By  Unknown, at 10:08 PM  

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sunday 130806
holy..crap. i forgot what i did yesterday. (?) ohhh, went out slightly after lunch, to arrow (yes, i'm there everyday), then had freaking drama meeting at 3pm. went okay(?) i guess. i anticipate conflicts to happen, because not all of us, well, can work very well. there's a girl from china in my group, pretty hard to communicate, you know? then went back to Arrow, where i managed to satisfy my craving for bubble tea cos bryan bought it on the way back from lunch with the rest. but overall, okayla. drama exam coming up. i'll update on that when it comes.

monday 140806
so i went for my lecture at 9am this morning! yay for me. Accounts lecture, i try not to skip her lecture cos my Accounts lecturer is seriously hilarious. she's from greece. her slang just rocks. and she's pregnant now. haha. she's damn cool la. she quit smoking cos she's pregnant. then i had math tutorial in the afternoon, where everyone, left and right, were so glum. understandable though. essays and shit. breakups and death. oh well. then went back to Arrow (haha, you'll see a lot more of "arrows" in the entries to come) where a bit of my Hoi Assignment Plan was done, thankyou bryan :) about 7ish, off i left to come back home. had dinner and stuff, then here i am blogging now. about time i update i think? till we meet again, take care. hugs.

sometimes i wonder if you still bother?

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chen! we need pictures! of course we bother ;) you know what i mean! *smuacks*

By  Anonymous, at 3:16 PM  

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me apologies for not having new entries. hey, i really skipped my Hoi tute on Friday morning. woke up already..brushed my teeth..but went back to bed. was just so tired. God bless my attendance la. but should be okay still, don't think it has fallen bellow 80%, otherwise the immigration will deport me back, which, hmm, is possibly a good thing right? then i get to see you guys! wehee. *i wish la*

friday 110805.

since i skipped hoi in the morning, my day started later..two lectures in the afternoon. ended at 5.15pm. then hung around Arrow (the headquarters, hehe. nola, usual meeting place; bryan,greg,chin&raymond's place) until dinner time..as usual. and this week, we decided to be a bit more adventurous with our dinner venue, so we took the tram to flemington (about 20 minutes away from city) to LAKSA KING! authentic malaysian hawker food. seela, we pathetic people, craving for malaysian food so badly. but it was good though..just thinking about it now makes me damn hungry. after dinner, back to Arrow. hung around for a while..somehow i just felt so lethargic that day so didn't stay long in Arrow..Hizwan trammed me home about 12 plus..reached my place, we sat in the lobby to chat for a bit, cos he was feeling damn tired also..by the time we finish talking, the last tram gone already so HAHA, he had to walk back to his place. oh well. day ended about 2am.

saturday 120806.

was only thinking of doing my Hoi assignment in Arrow. so dressed in a polo and tracks, i headed to Arrow. while there, Lyn (weilyn) rang me..wanted to meet up cos Stef's here..did i tell you guys she's here for hols? anyway so yeah, after lunch, the bunch of us went to meet her..had drinks with her, then started to get cold, so we decided to head back to Arrow. so stef and everyone else came back with us and then came dinner time, went to Lygon St (little italy) for dinner..it was like a cempaka reunion man! like 11 of us..chriswong, lyn, stef, daniel, greg, haorui, raymond, aivyn, vivien, bryan (only non cempakan) and me. so yeah..was fun..it's nice to catch up once in a while with people whom we were not close to back in high school.

then went for gelati after that..in the cold cold temperature, haha, call us mad, but that's the fun la. and bryan dropped his gelati cos that genius accidently poked a hole in the cone so it fell over and there was like a commotion surrounding the dropped gelati. haha. then headed to the park and then back to Arrow. day ended earlier than usual..cos we all had work to do..

i shall update soons cos got people around me now..and they don't know about my blog cos it's meant for you guys but i'm sure they'll find out soon laa.. :) adios. missing you guys.

loves.

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Okay, so here it is, after much contemplation. Considering I'm a newbie to the world of blogging (yes, so sue me), I doubt this post would be a long one. Ms Fei, thanks for the influence. amillioncells. The influence was made greater by a million times wei. Seriously. I don't know if I'll be fully committed to be blogging everyday, so please forgive me if you don't get a new entry to read on a daily basis. Anyhoo, I guess this blog was created for the people back home, this way, I don't have to update you guys individually although I'd love to. i will when i have the time, after all these damn essays. I swear these essays are driving me up the highest wall in the entire world. Two essays down, two more to go. Planted my ass on the chair for seven hours that night, until 4am because I was goddamn determined to finish up the Psychology essay. It wasn't out of hard working-ness, I just wanted to get it out of the way so I can start on my other two assignments, how pathetic is that? Right now: History of Ideas (HOI) and Accounts left. Somehow, I think my workload is of no interest to you guys. Hehe. So yeah, screw that.

Enough said, I just miss you guys. Badly. Everytime I look up at the pictures (which I recently stuck, on the mirror next to my bed), I feel like going home. It's not so much of being home sick, it's more like I just wanna be in the company of you guys, Fei, Di, Popi and Zong. (note: this is in no particular order kay) You know, it's so heart warming to think back on those high school days, sitting at the table in the canteen, just chatting away while some of us might have been on duty with arms folded, sitting on the whatever-you-call-it-thing outside the labs (which I don't belong to), going in to classes fashionably late with the fugly red tie..and the endless other memories we have of school. Okay, so maybe this won't be a short post. I just feel like pouring my heart out about those sweet memories. I know lah, it's so damn not me right. Maybe it's the emo side of me talking.

and damn it, i just clicked publish, and everything disappeared. this post was suppose to be a lot longer. thanks blogspot, goddamnit. jeeze.

so..as i was saying. oh yeah, hey you, your life doesn't revolve around him and just him, you know that. You are supposed to have been stronger after this whole drama. Don't let little events reverse the whole ''i've emerged as a stronger person'' kay? I'm quite sure you've moved on..it's just 'little events' that's triggering those memories to flow back..it's never the wisest decision to give a relationship your all. Relationships never last forever, you know that too. Well, they do, but not at this age, girl. And again, you're still young..like how everyone will tell you..plenty of other fishes out there. Take it as a lesson, something that has taught you many of life's valuable lessons. We may be far apart, but, know that you're always in my thoughts. There's really nothing much left for me to say, considering I was there when this happened to you and my apologies, for having to leave half way. So yes, you're a lot better now though I must admit, or maybe I'm just not there to see you dwell on the past? Hope not la k? Time is healing all..just a little bit more. You're about a 100 metres away from the finishing line, dear. =)

To the rest..i'll blog more later. Randomly, the stay overs we had at my place are just..so clear in my head now. Sigh, the good old times. Clearly, I'm missing you guys..like..mad? Really enjoyed every moment I spent with you guys when I was home..altho, zong, please try not to be sick the next time k? Randomly again, to the three remaining ones back there, cherish the times you guys have left together, before the time comes for all of you to travel the path God has chosen for us. It sucks to be scattered all over the globe. And shit, I just realized quite a bit has been cut off by blogspot as a result of me being disconnected just now. Gee, thanks.

Well since BLOGSPOT did that, I guess i'll continue from where it got cut off.

Di dearest, I hope all's going well for you on that side of the globe you're in. I would've loved to be there to send you off, you know that. Sorry. =( Just remember not to let people take advantage of you when you're there. You have people from Melb and M'sia missing you badly..maybe, just maybe, if and when we become rich, we'll pay you a visit. Till we meet again, take care of yourself.

Love all.

is it me or have we lost touch?

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